No Reason To Smile

Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa, I understand why you don’t smile

In your heart there has been hurt all the while 

Pain hiding behind your magnificent eyes 

I recognized it, I was not surprised 

Your pain, your shame, and your regret

Well, Mona, there is no need to fret 

Your heart will go on through each and every trial 

I’ve been through this too, for a while 

It can be seen in your forced smile or in the pain behind your eyes 

I never understood how you went so long before someone realized 

So clearly obvious is your discomfort and your sadness 

I can see it though, I know you are in distress 

The whole world speculates and agrees you are filled with glee 

However I know, I know that is incorrect, because I relate to thee 

Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa, I understand why you don’t smile 

In your heart there has been hurt all the while

December Walk

The solemnity and coldness of this day

Touches my heart in an unimaginable way

The beauty of the winter air 

Gives me the love that I wish to declare 

The crisp clean snowflakes fall gently from the sky 

Falling on my cheeks like tears I did not cry 

Teaching me lessons about the way life can be 

Letting me know that it’s possible to be free 

With this newfound support that I’m given by the snow 

I know there is a place for me- I just know

That behind the glaze of  ice 

It happened due to the way God rolled his dice 

If not for this walk along a broken winter road

Life would not once again upon me be bestowed 

The snow, the ice, and air will be remembered 

All because I took a walk on a beautiful night in December 

    

For Margaret Isobel French; Daisy

For Margaret Isobel French

For my great grandmother, Daisy

Who taught me what beauty is and how it is obtained 

Who taught me how to be strong 

And what’s right and wrong 

She was always the one I could look up to 

With her grace and generosity 

She was beautiful and fortunate 

And always so affectionate 

A living role model 

She has strength beyond compare 

And knows just when to quit 

She has a lot of wit 

Whenever I see her I am reminded 

Of the ways she saw life 

And the lessons she taught me 

In hopes that one day I could believe 

My beautiful great grandmother taught me so much 

And was my inspiration to keep going 

So I decided to write this rhyme 

For all the lessons she taught me in my time 

Once upon a time-

Once upon a time, thoughts of happiness filled her brain and heart
Until suicidal thoughts pierced through her like a dart
She once loved herself and everyone
Then hated everyone under the sun
She once was a flirt
Until she was overcome by pain and hurt
Now she spends her days in a lonely haze
Though not for lack of trying
Much of her time is now spent crying,
And inside, dying
For each teardrop cried
There is a crimson one that falls from her veins
One that only causes her more pain
She misses the girl she once was
And hates who she has become
To put her life simply,
I am not the girl that I used to be..

Dreams

As children we are told who and what we can be
We are told what we can achieve
The adults tell us we can be-
Be an astronaut or a sailor on the sea

They enable our minds, yes,
We are told to try and that we will be blessed
Adults refuse to tell us about the stress
And that our hearts will more than once beat loudly in our chests

We are never told about the unavoidable pain
Or that the occasional day might be mundane
They forget to tell us of the strain
Yet they tell us that we won’t get anywhere without using our brain

As children we are told who and what we can be
We are told what we can achieve
The adults tell us we can be-
Be an astronaut or a sailor on the sea

There’s a catch to this you’ll see
The adults never tell you who you never want to be
A person fearing an unthinkable jubilee
A child that continually tries to clean up the debris

We grow up knowing that we can
And fail- left without a back up plan
Left to look back to where life began
All we know is that we can’t

As children we are told who and what we can be
We are told what we can achieve
The adults tell us we can be-
Be an astronaut or a sailor on the sea