The Beginning Of The End

It’s starting to come close
To the day I’m no longer so morose
I can feel it, it’s nearly time to not pretend
It’s nearly the beginning of the end

When strengthening me are those I care for
And when happiness is no longer a chore
One I work tirelessly for and still get underpaid
My lifetime will soon be made

Things will get better soon I hope
I’m damn near the end of my rope
This is coming along
And it finally feels right, not wrong

Changing in me is my whole person
After all, life couldn’t seem to worsen
So the dreary days are soon to be gone
And I can feel the way I’ve dreamed all along

The days are brighter
Or maybe it’s from being a writer
Where the heavens seem to collapse for words
Or is that just a myth I’ve heard

The glimmer of hope seems to be restored
Filled with daydreams of joy galore
My mind in constant motion
Inspired by simple notions

And thoughts of odd are within
But that’s nothing of a sin
Because they are thoughts of readiness
And nearly gone are those of emptiness

It’s starting to come close
To the day I’m no longer so morose
I can feel it, it’s nearly time to not pretend
It’s nearly the beginning of the end

In The Air

Some nights before I speak
I let my irrationalities peak
And I let out silent cries in despair
As an angel cursed with nightmares

Causing my heart to crave a foggy glow
That which some pills might show
Making me want the simplicity of comatose
Which involves nothing more than a higher dose

My anxieties trying to complete my soul
I tell them to yield, I put them on hold
A loud heartbeat is nothing in comparison
To the dozens of times my mind churns within

I gather inner strength from lack of air
And try nothing more than to take care
For every moment I waste not breathing
It’s another I live internally bleeding

Irrationalities filling my mind like stars in the sky
Making my mind anxious and my heart shy
And all the while I misread it as being gleeful
When reality reveals it as being lethal

I make realizations about who I was
And the reasons behind the ‘because’
So I replaced my sadness with insecurities, irrationalities, anxieties,
And the sadness crept right back up to overwhelm me